Wow, it has been a minute.
The last time I posted a blog I was busy doing “A blog a day for the month of May.” which mind you, I didn’t finish. It got to a point where I ran out of ideas for posts and felt like I was putting quantity over quality. So,I took a little break.
During the past few months of me not blogging, a lot has changed regarding my health, my mental state and my life in general. So, let me catch you up to speed:
My health has been going up and down. I am still struggling to lose weight and I have been battling an eating disorder, which will come as a shock to a lot of you, especially my family. I have only really talked about it with my mom. But not even in depth. I guess I was scared to admit it because that would mean I had lost control over that aspect of my life. I will be posting about this at a later time as I am still battling and not yet fully ready to open up that much about the topic. I am doing good now, I am working on loving myself and being healthy.
I was also told I might have IBS, I was placed on a very strict diet and it caused me to get very sick. I ate almost nothing for 4 days. But I found out my body kind of went into shock, so now I am just going to listen to what it needs and focus on being healthy, not skinny.
As you’d expect from a bipolar person, this aspect of my life has also had it’s ups and downs. I have been focusing more on my mental state as of late. Spending more time with myself. I have also started a YouTube channel which has been really great for my mental health, oddly enough. I get to be creative and creativity has always been my way of coping.
I still take photos quite often, but I have stopped trying to make a career out of it. I got to a point where it didn’t feel like a passion anymore. It became more about money than loving what I do. Now, I take photos because I love to. Money is just by product.
My New Job:
So, I started working as an office admin and I kinda love it. I work with some incredible people, who always make me smile. I get to be creative when my boss gives me marketing work to do. I have also learned that I love creating things for marketing. I am currently being trained in it.
The job has also been great for my mental health. I can focus on something else, things that keep my mind occupied. I can buy things I want to buy without stressing. I can even help out my family if it is needed.
I turned 22 in August. I am now officially allowed to sing Taylor Swift – 22 as loud as I want for an entire year.
Honestly, the last few months have been grueling on a personal level, but I have also never felt stronger. I was placed in difficult situations the last few months and got through it.
Oh! And your girl graduated! Although I am not doing full time photography right now, I am not too bummed about it. I know God is pushing me in a direction that he wants me in.
I hope to bring the blogs back. Quality over quantity. For those of you who have stuck with me this far, thank you.